do things get better?

well, one day you wake up and they actually do.

maybe "it gets better" isn't a stupid saying.

This isn’t a super long one, but I was listening to Things Will Get Better by Cleo Sol and I realized that things actually do get better and it’s not just some saying that people say to make you feel like your life isn’t crumbling around you… even thought sometimes it does.

One day, you wake up and it all makes sense. Everything will click and you will realize you’re living in answered prayers.

I’m writing this from Belize. I’m sitting by the pool with my liked songs on shuffle basking in the glory that is signing the biggest contract of life. When only 14 days ago I cried in front of Blank Street Coffee wondering what I was actually doing with my life. I had no job, kind of unstable income, and adjusting to a newfound life with no structure.

Then the Universe said, “Hold tight, we have something coming for you.”

Now everything feels….worth it.

Now, two weeks later I’m beachside thinking about the fact that I may never need a full-time job again and I’m living in a prayer I hoped to accomplish by 35.

What did I do differently? I surrendered. I let life happen to me and I didn’t complain. I took everything as a lesson leading me to my purpose and one day it all worked out. I left spaces where I felt unwanted. I stood hard on my boundaries. I showed the Universe I only needed to learn some lessons once.

Me in January could’ve never predicted or planned for this. And maybe that was the lesson for me this entire. Giving up control.

If you haven’t met me by now, I am a girl that plans for everything. While I hate to admit this, I have a control issue — and maybe that’s why I’m so obsessed with fitness because it’s the only thing I could grasp onto for so long. For years, I meticulously built a life that would not only satisfy me, but make for all the other things I wanted to invite into my life like romantic love and abundance. While I still want those things, the entire point is to let go.

And so I did.

Letting go made me realize that the Universe had plans for me bigger than I could’ve ever dreamed of.

I am living proof that preparation does indeed meet opportunity.

With Love,
Mon Cheree, Chan // My Darling, Chan